More About Me

My name is Crystal.  I am 28 years old and attending college to obtain my first Bachelors degree.  I am anxiously awaiting to hear back from IU School of Nursing on whether or not I will be accepted into their program for the Fall of 2013.  I am still attending college because for a while I just moved around a lot trying to figure out and learn who I am.  I lived in Rexburg, Idaho; St. Louis, Missouri; and Colorado Springs, Colorado.  Man do I miss those mountains.

Along with moving around a lot I have also changed my major a couple of times.  It wasn't until I started working in an ER that I realized that my greatest desire was to be a nurse and just to let you know once you obtain you license as a nurse you still clean up people's crap. :-) 

So besides moving around I have also faced challenges in my life, but who hasn't right?!  As you have read in my mini post about me and maybe some of my posts I have written you have come to learn that I am a birth mom.  I found out I was pregnant on August 22, 2011 which is a day I will never forget.  I thought I didn't know what I should or even wanted to do but that wasn't true at all.  The day before I medically found out (buying a pregnancy test) I had told a coworker that I thought I was.  She said to forget about it that I was stressing over it, but I couldn't.  Then she asked me "what if you are?  What will you do?'  The words out of my mouth stunned me and even her I said "I would place my child for adoption."  WOW!  I didn't realize how challenging this decision would be.  This is something I will continue to share with you.

So here I am now.  Continuing my education to become a nurse.  I am happy with my decision to place and I have yet to regret it.  Writing about it is my therapy and also is my way to try to educate people that may not understand adoption or why anyone would want to "give up" their child.  I didn't give her up she is and always will be in my heart and honestly I BELIEVE she was never mine to have.  That might be hard for some to read but it's the truth and it's my truth to tell. 

I am an aunt to 7 nephews and 6 nieces.  I have a wonderful family that I am proud to be apart of.  I am a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.  Sure I have not been a perfect example of  a member of my faith and the values that we hold, but I strive to be a good example.  I am not perfect just like others are not perfect.  My faith has taught me a lot though. Which is I believe I have a Heavenly Father who loves me and knows who I am.  I believe that Jesus Christ is my Savior and he was sent here to earth to Atone for my sins because of His sacrifice I am able to repent and be forgiven of my shortcomings.  I believe that I will be able to one day return to live with my Father in Heaven and my Savior.  I also believe that I can be sealed to my family here on earth for time and all eternity.  We have Temples on this earth that allows this to happen.  I have two temples that I hope one day I can visit if not one day be sealed in with my eternal companion.  They are the Logan, Utah Temple and the Manti, Utah Temple.  I love Ireland and the architecture of these two temples remind me of the designs of many Castles in Ireland.

Anyways there is a little bit more about me.  I am learning to love me for me and not change for anyone else but myself if I see there is something I need to change.  You will be able to learn more about me through my posts because I plan on letting myself be vulnerable and show courage but showing you all of ME!

With Love,